How long has it been?

 Coming back here after 12 years? 

It feels like coming home to your childhood home.

 Familiar, yet peculiar. 

My entries were all about my boys -toddlers as they were, 

our conversations through moments we shared. 

Now my home is an empty-nest, and there's this sort of emptiness hanging around. 

Lutfil is now 17yo, Hafiz 18yo and Umar is already a fine young man at the age of 20yo. Alhamdulillah

Of course the parents are no longer young themselves. 😃

Alhamdulillah for all that Allah has bestowed upon us.

We are currently a "LDR " family unit.

Kids are in Malaysia whereas the parents are somewhere

 in a country, in Central Asia.

It is not easy and it is definitely tiring, emotionally I would say. 

So much had happened within this 12 years. 

I have recently lost another brother. 

Yesterday was one year since the passing of my other brother.

Life has not been the same since. 

Their passing somehow took away some parts of me with them.

Each of them played vital role in shaping my character and help defining my values. 

Oh, and I also lost my dear sister- in law whom I regard as my own sister and mentor.

They have gone.

They left  us but their memories didn't.

Memories will always stay where they are, in the heart. 

I am still blessed with my own family unit. 

We are thousands kilometres apart, but trust me, the mother's tazkirah and leteran is as real as if I am beside them. 😅

I make new friends, but still thinking of my friends I have back there in Msia.

I cook a lot more here, often trying out new recipes of bingka labu and soon other kuih, to kill time.

I try to masak-masak lauk and nasi and invite friends over to the house. I love deep conversations, so I only prefer small quorum. 

I do also send over nasi and lauk for the "office guys" so they could have a taste of home. Kesian jugak to those yang lama tak balik, esp yang on single status tu kan .

I continue ngaji with my ustazah, Alhamdulillah.

I hope to add one more skills while I am still here. 

I hope to add more cerita and updates for my readers, as well as memoirs for my kids juga. 

I pen -off dulu.

see you soon!